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Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Wow! Life is Hard!

That pretty much sums it up!
This is just my raw feelings.
I spent a week at girls camp, it was hot, I got very dirty, the overnight hike I did with the older girls with a full pack up many steep hills was hard, but I loved every minute of it!!
The day we got home I had to register my high school kids for school and then said goodbye to my second oldest son, who moved to Texas to follow his dreams;
happy for him, but emotional for us.
 Last week my three teenagers spent the week at an Especially For Youth camp and I took the youngest and did Salt Lake Parade of Homes.
It was fun.
Friday our car just stopped working, and we found out we needed a new engine!!
It cost almost more than the car is worth, so we aren't going to fix it.
I also realized when my son moved to Texas, I could no longer borrow his microphone to voice over my video's. Not sure how I am doing those videos yet. I'm sure I will figure it out.
Among all this we managed to squeezed in back to school shopping for the four kids we still have at home.
 This drained pretty much everything left in my wallet!!
Wondering how to face replacing things now that the money is not there right now, hard!
And all during this time I'm still getting pressure from my literary agent to get my social media numbers up!
Can't seem to get Instagram over 1,000! 
Then last night my daughter accidentally set my phone in a cup of water!
It is on rice and I am hoping and praying it will work in a few days after it dries out!!
Resisting the urge to turn it on is hard.

My stress level is through the roof.
 I yelled at my kids today about the mess in the front room 
 then I felt bad, and collapsed on the couch in tears. My mom happened to walk in my door right then and just held me in her arms.

Ever feel like, 
"When's it going to end?"

I know my Heavenly Father is there, he is still watching over me. 
 He knows help is coming, but I can't see it and I am tired emotionally.
I have a video about DIY fear that I prepared for today.
DIY Fear is when you are too afraid so you don't even try to do a DIY project?
Ironically as I sit here writing this I realize my advice in the video for how to overcome DIY Fear is what I need. 
I just need to take it one bite at a time!!

I hope this helps someone else too!!
I am grateful for what I have, and I am not really a whiny person, just overwhelmed.

Thanks for letting me rant today!!


dee dee said...

Wow girl... so sorry you are having to deal with so much at one time. God is good and is with you in every step... even when you are totally overwhelmed. Sending you hugs and lifting up prayers.

momtofatdogs said...

Chin Up Rhonda. It is sure hard being Mom & turning your cap around everytime you turn around too! You will get thru this. With the grace of God & your personal strength, YOU CAN DO IT. One step at a time. Don't be so hard on your self. Take a break, take a deep breath.